Wil was 6 days old in this picture and it was the first time that I had been able to hold him. Holding him was scarce but with good reason. We had to hold him with pillows and a cushion as to not put any pressure on his back. The tubing sucked but was obviously necessary, considering he couldn't breathe on his own and needed the ventilator.
This day was also Bryan and I's 2nd wedding anniversary. It is only by God's grace that we are still married, that and we're both stubborn. LOL Please if you or someone you know is going through something of this nature (child sick in hospital) please encourage them to seek marriage counseling, especially if they are newly weds. We were still trying to learn each other and then WHAM life happened. Both of us handled situations differently at the time, I needed to talk about it and Bryan just shut down. From the time in my pregnancy when we found out about Wil we were at odds. It lasted until he was about a month old. It was terrible. People have different coping mechanisms and it doesn't mean that either one of them are wrong but you do need to learn to work together . We shut down completely with one another hardly even speaking. Poor Saige, he had to endure his immature parents for that stupid season. Thank God it was only a season! We got into a huge fight and agreed that neither of us would divorce. We agreed that we were both stubborn and didn't believe in it(divorce), so instead we'd stay married and live miserable together for the rest of our lives! Well.....it didn't quite work out that way because Bryan is my best friend and I'm completely in love with the guy! The point is, is that it's very difficult to go at it alone and unfortunately a lot of relationships don't end up like ours. Getting help isn't weak it's wise.
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